"And you shall know the truth, and the truth shall set you free." John 8:32
I know this is an extremely sensitive subject. It's a subject most people don't like to talk about, especially we church folk. We'd rather just kind of do a bypass and talk about how good God is. Well yes, God is good, all the time, but how do we experience the fullness of It when our joy is buried under the guilt and shame of molestation? Harsh word, I know, but in this human incarnation it's a real word, and for millions of people, a real experience.
Scripture says before bringing your gifts to God, go and make it right with your brother. In a case such as this, that brother/sister is you. We must make it right within ourselves by first anchoring in light, love and safety. We are then placed in a position to come clean about the shame some of us still carry about being abused.
Healing starts with the realization it was never, ever, EVER your fault, and the very truth of your being has never been hurt, harmed or endangered in any way.
You might ask, what do you mean, I was never hurt, harmed or endangered? Well, we are spiritual beings, having a human experience. Yet, we are so much more than our human experiences – infinitely more. We are individualized expressions of God, Universal Presence, or whatever name you feel comfortable calling It, having a human experience.
The human experience is like the tip of an iceberg. The surface or external aspect of ourselves (which represents our five senses) feels and experiences pain, but the essence of us (our true selves) cannot be touched, harmed or damaged in anyway. The essence of our being is God, and no person or circumstance can take that away from us.
Yet, there’s deep spiritual work that must be done to see ourselves as we truly are – free, whole, beautiful, perfect and complete. This work consists of first forgiving ourselves, and while never condoning the inappropriate behavior of abuse, the willingness to forgive others. We then commit to a consistent practice of prayer and meditation, and with an open heart, began to see ourselves as God sees us – as Its beloved in whom It is well pleased.
I love you,
Ester
